{"id":1154,"date":"2023-03-08T16:02:44","date_gmt":"2023-03-08T16:02:44","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/lampbylit.com\/magazine\/journal-entry-about-my-gay-thoughts-from-when-i-was-18\/"},"modified":"2023-03-08T16:02:44","modified_gmt":"2023-03-08T16:02:44","slug":"journal-entry-about-my-gay-thoughts-from-when-i-was-18","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/lampbylit.com\/magazine\/journal-entry-about-my-gay-thoughts-from-when-i-was-18\/","title":{"rendered":"Journal Entry about my gay thoughts from when I was 18"},"content":{"rendered":"

I’d never have thought that I’d be Writing about something like this but I feel the need to catalogue events such as these to make sure I evaluate the decisions I’ve been making in my life. Today mave have very well marked the most homoerotic act I have ever committed, I had been browsing the pornographic board on 4chan for prolonged times throughout the day and was progressively getting exually excited throughout the day. Then, out of the complete blue I felt a Subconscious but immense desire to penetrate my asshole with my Own fingers in the evening, around 7pm. I went on about it like I’ve done it a few times in the past Where I just try to to poke to it through my clothes and just stop after a few innocent, but now admittedly fortelling pokes. I Wish I had never done it but this time around I committed to the fingering I grabbed the coconut oil and snuck it into the toilet. I then proceeded to lubricate my middle finger and completely insert it into my asshole. I then began moving it in an ebb and flow motion.<\/a><\/p>\n

At this point of the sexual act I had started using both my middle and index fingers to sexually please myself. There was no stopping my ass plunging, as\u00a0 I didn’t even stop to defecate due to which the room was filled with this vile stench. The stench of my shame, there really was no hiding it. After about 10-15 minutes I stroked my penis to completion. The pornographic movie I had ejaculated to was heterosexual in nature, of course but this was in no way an indication of my heterosexuality anymore.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I’d never have thought that I’d be Writing about something like this but I feel the need to catalogue events such as these to make sure I evaluate the decisions I’ve been making in my life. Today mave have very well marked the most homoerotic act I have ever committed, I had been browsing the … [DO NOT CLICK]<\/a><\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":1153,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[10],"tags":[24,25,27,26],"class_list":{"0":"entry","1":"post","2":"publish","3":"author-anonymous","4":"post-1154","6":"format-standard","7":"has-post-thumbnail","8":"category-slush","9":"post_tag-4chan","10":"post_tag-gay","11":"post_tag-journal","12":"post_tag-porn"},"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/lampbylit.com\/magazine\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1154","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/lampbylit.com\/magazine\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/lampbylit.com\/magazine\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lampbylit.com\/magazine\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lampbylit.com\/magazine\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1154"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/lampbylit.com\/magazine\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1154\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1155,"href":"https:\/\/lampbylit.com\/magazine\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1154\/revisions\/1155"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lampbylit.com\/magazine\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/1153"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/lampbylit.com\/magazine\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1154"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lampbylit.com\/magazine\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1154"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lampbylit.com\/magazine\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1154"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}